Day 243

The heat
Is too much for me.
And I feel myself straying indoors
More and more
To beat it...

Day 242

I'm tiresome
Always tired
With work everyday...
Life moves too quickly.

Day 241

Wide eyes
exploring the world
tracing over the lines
that hold everything together.

Day 240

What is reality?
What is truth?
What is real?
Is it what your senses tell you?
Is it what you see?
What you feel, touch, and taste?
Can your senses be compromised?
Are you dreaming...
or are you awake?
Are you sitting in front of your computer right now
or are you somewhere else
Unaware...
And more importantly
Does it matter
If you're happy?

Day 239

I don't get it.
When I'm interested
And I make the effort to try,
He's not interested in me.
When I'm not interested
And I avoid him, act that I don't care (because I don't)
He's completely interested in me.
Greeeat...

Day 238

What I've Learned From Being A Janitor(ess)

-Even if you block the doors, people still come in.
-Everyone thinks they are the exception.
-The cleaning crew is silent and efficient.
-Only use cleaners that are MADE for the surface
-Everything that can go wrong, will go wrong.
-You won't be thanked, it will be assumed that you LOVE doing your job and that it is your ONLY duty, therefore you should do it right.


And the most useful:
-How to clean up vomit without vomiting

Day 234, 235, 236, and 237

The Open Road

I cannot always tell you
Where I'm going
Because sometimes
I don't know where I'll end up.
Sometimes I cannot foresee what will happen
Who I will meet
What I will do.
I don't know what the future holds
What will become of it.
But I can promise
I will always love you
And I will always return.

Day 233

I'm so excited!
The time of waiting is coming to an end
After waiting waiting and waiting
And all the plans
The work...
The sweat and toil.
It's finally here.

Day 232

Family
means everything.
Those should remember their roots
to learn from the past
and be encouraged
to change what they see fit
but still have important things
remain the same.

Day 231

I don't have anything much to say today...
Except that maybe I miss talking to you
And maybe
That's everything...

Day 230

Oh it's something else
Feeling so free for a while...
Nothing that has to be done
Relaxing in the cold
Instead of a long day of working in heat.

Day 229

Dime Toss

Damn you dime toss.
Spending my whole paycheck
Exchanging them for dimes
In order to win a glass cup
I'll never use.
Yay summer.

Day 228

As the night unfolds its blanket
That curls the grass in
Tucks the birds into nests
Spreads a cool air across the sky
And turns on the firefly nightlights,
I'm sitting under the stars
Wishing, wandering, and dreaming.

Day 227

Today is gonna be a better day than yesterday
Because I can make it better.
Because my attitude is better.
Because I'll see people I know.
Because I'll be making a difference.
I can deal with that.

Day 226

Oh the rain
It keeps me indoors
Stuck on auto-pilot.
Visiting the mall
Watching tv...
Yawn.

Day 225

The world seems so easy
Looking from a child's eyes.
Things make sense
People are compassionate
Life seems to just work.
I would love to look at everything that way.

Day 223

Why am I not surprised?
Why should any disapointed really matter?
I was right in my thinking, no matter how negative it seems.
It's always something else, someone else, somewhere else.
You validate my thinking. It makes sense to me now.
No matter how hard I try and forget the past hurts, they come up again with one word that you say.
How can you expect me to deal?
My hearts on a string and you pull it when you want to but most of the time, you let it go slack.
And then, you try to guilt me if I don't keep it there for you.
I'm sorry, but I won't always be here.
Fuck you.

Day 222

What a sleepy day...
Sleeping the morning away...
Not doing much
But watching tv
Going to see a movie.
Lazy lazy Saturdays...

Day 221

In one moment
Everything changes.
Life is different
Your plans change
Your future...
Instantly differently.
Just one choice
Makes the difference.

Day 220

The pounding won't stop
The lights burn my eyes
The stress strains me.

Man, I need a vacation...

Day 219

Betty White Equals BAMF

Oh Betty White
How you are so wise.
You always know what to say
However inappropriate but funny.
You are such a great dancer
And have a way with words.
I want to meet you someday
You are a "Golden Girl" always and forever
In the hearts of millions.

Day 218

There is not much to say
That hasn't already been said.
More things are written, sung, expressed
Than what I could do
What I could write
Sung
Expressed.

Day 217

What do I do now?

Day 216

I know I should be celebrating
Going outside to watch the fireworks
Celebrating independence
Eating hamburgers, watermelon and potato salad
But really...
There is no break for me
Working until I cannot move.
This sucks.

Day 215

I'm beyond the point of pure tiredness.
Beyond just being tired
Beyond wanting to sleep
Beyond sitting for hours on end.
Ugh...

Day 214

I'm sorry for being so cryptic
But sometimes I don't think you'll understand.
I'm sorry for laughing at the worst times
But sometimes I can't keep it all inside.
I'm sorry I'm so unusual
But being the same is too boring.

But in all honesty...
I'm not sorry for who I am.

Day 213

...
What is there to say
When words themselves fade away?
What can I do
When I'm in love with everything you do?
What to do
What to say
You've got me confused in every way.