Day 212

My Job

My job exists
So you are happy
And everything is clean.
Thanking me
Is going out of your way
But complaining
Is the only way you will.
You won't notice me
But that's okay.
Because guess what,
I don't notice you either.

I like doing my job
It makes it a little better
And a little easier for the people who matter.

Day 211

Walking through the book racks
I came upon a white book
With a small, black title.
It was the epitome of boring literature.
But...what was it?
A small-time author?
A long-lost memoir?
Picking it up
I noticed something interesting.
It had won a Pulitzer.
Touche.

Day 210

The summer heat
Has me curled up on the beach
Curled up with a novel.
Reading about crime
Adventures in the sun
Science fiction mysteries.
There's nowhere else I'd rather be.

Day 209

Pookie

A pocket-sized hamster named Pookie
Like a rodent
Whiskers
A pink nose
Furry
Inquisitive.
Like an old man
Graying slightly
With cataracts
And with a slight limp.
Like...
My little baby.

Day 208

I.
Feel.
Like.
I.
Stop.
And.
Start.
Without.
Moving.
Ahead.

Day 207

Loud

I am loud
But not in spoken words.
I am loud
In the expressions of my eyes.
I am loud
In my glances.
I am loud
I am loud
I am. Loud.

I am quiet
When it comes to spoken words.
So you'd never know
How loud I am.

Day 206

Fireflies

A dusk farmland field
filled with fireflies
darting, shimmering lights
in the sky.

Day 205

Attitude

With a smack, crash, boom
You can change it
Change it.
Depressed to sad
Sad to grumpy
Grumpy to content
Content to good
Good to happy
Happy to giggly
Giggly to estatic.
With a smack, crash, boom...
You can change it.
So do it.

Day 204

Destiny

It runs through the veins
Coursing through them
Filling me up
Pushing me
Encouraging me.
It is there
My destiny.

Day 203

There's that moment
in between waking and sleep
where the world feels right
the sheets and blankets feel wonderful pressed to the skin.
My life seems limited only by eternity
And I let it wash over me
Rolling in waves.

Day 202

Stream of thoughts
echo through caverns
and caves drip drip drip
with faucets in time
but the clock doesn't stop ticking
like a bomb hidden in the darkness,
the shadows call and slowly
slowly
they come to
an
uprupt
end.

Day 201

Day-Off

Sleeping In.
Cheesepuffs.
Bubble baths.
Curled up with a novel.
Writing.
Doodling.
Sketching.
Dreaming.

Day 200

200 days down
A milestone for me
Being able to prove I can
And I will
Commit to something
And follow through.

Day 199

You are...
Nothing.
You are...
Everything.

Day 198

Perfection

"I am careful not to confuse excellence with perfection. Excellence I can reach for, perfection is God's work." -Michael J. Fox

"The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself." -Anna Quindlen

Day 197

Ghosts

Ghosts of the past and present
Linger behind me
They stretch out before me.
Showing shadows of where they've been
What they've done
In the utmost hope
From the deepest of their heart
That something might change
That it will change.

Day 196

This isn't fun for me, you know.
I bet you like to think
That I love to make you hurt
That I hold grudges.
That I tell my friends everything
And recount my past with you.
I bet it makes you feel better
For the shit you've done to me.
You know what?
I have nothing poetic to say to that but
Fuck you.
I bleed when you cut me
I cry when you hurt me
I'm a living, breathing person
Who has more feelings than you'll ever know.

Day 195

I'm writing
To tell you how I feel
To express myself
To show you something different
To imagine and believe.
So step in and enjoy
The world of my words...

Day 194

Time

It slips away
But you want it to last
When the going is good
It goes quickly
But when the going is bad
Time eecks by.

Day 193

The first swim of summer
Surrounded by friends
Under the pale moonlight.
It's alright to relax
Under the lights.
It's summer baby
Soak it all in.

Day 192

To me, you are:
Incredible.
Motivating.
Beautiful.
Inspiring.
Amazing.
Starstruck.
Destined for greatness.
But you don't listen to me
You listen to him.
And he doesn't know you like I do.

Day 191

You've got eyes like diamonds
That sparkle and twinkle when you laugh.
It's not like guys to have such beautiful eyes
That make me jealous
But also have me transfixed...

Day 190

The famous letters to the anonymous (you know who you are)

-If you wear that scowl long enough, your face will stay that way. Honestly, it would be an improvement. :)
-I miss you. I miss you like a teenage girl misses her period.
-I really don't understand how you think. You baffle me.
-Honestly, you are one of the most fascinating people I've ever met.
-Why don't you love me? I care for you so much and honestly, you could care less. It really does hurt you know...
-I really don't like it when you hang out with those girls. It's not you. It's not what I want you to do and it's not good for you.
-It's so painful for me to see you go through this.
-No I will not dance for you.
-I'm so upset we can't hang out until later this summer. I reaaaaally want to. I miss you!
-Yes, it was me.
-Okay, seriously? SERIOUSLY?!?!
-I know you secretly read all of these....admit it. ;)

Day 189

Shut up.
Shut up.
Shut up.
Shut up.
I can't hear myself think
When all you do is talk over me.
Shut up.
I'm trying to listen
I really am
But when you reach a certain point
All you do is repeat.
So please
Shut up.

Day 188

Turn on the lights
When the darkness feels like its creeping in.
Light a candle
When the coldness chills you.
Strike a match
To fight the fears that lie in the dark
Childhood monsters are still hidden behind....

Day 187

Silky coats
Soft noses
Long strides
Foaming and frothing mouths
Galloping and panting
Anticipation
Crossing the line
Muddy
but glorious.

Day 186

Gun shop ammo
silver, shining casing
pattering against the ground
shot from guns
fired by hate
into people
for no real reason
but to spread
more hate.

Day 185

Ominous thunder rolls across the farm land
Clouds angry and dark
Flashes in the distance
Cool wind blowing
Trees upturning.
A storm is coming.

Day 184

Day 183

Grrr!
Blargh!
GAH!
RRRRR!
SON OF A-
FREAKIN A!
OH MY GOD!!!
PFFTT!!

And all that jazz.